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Am a contradiction of sorts. i love going out and having a good time with friends, and i can also stay home chill out over a book or a movie.. Am very passionate about writing, so give me a topic and watch me float away into wonderland... I Am crazy about music,books,friends and my doggie... :)

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

All around

I've suddenly been bitten by the ' I Want to write, I Want to rant, I want to blog' bug!! And so have decided to make the most of it... 

This Is just a thought
Just an idea
Just something that I've been mulling over for a while now.. 

Why are some people so miserable?
Are they really miserable?
Are they so used to being miserable, they draw comfort from that?
Are they happy getting the attention that they fear it might stop if they stop 'being' so miserable?
Do they not want to change their lives?

The more I interact with people, the more I seem to understand why they are the way they are!

Some will go to any lengths to get what they want
Some have a 'don't care', this is how I will live my life philosophy
Some pretty much just whine an cry through their day
Some oscilate between tears and laughter so quick, they leave me wondering "am I being a fool in worrying/caring about them"..

I do understand that pretty much everything we do and say has a subtle motive to it.. But I for one, cannot manipulate people into doing things.. 

I know it takes all kinds of people to make this world
But there are some who need to a reality check or should be thrown in a corner/pit till they get their act together!!! 

Disclaimer: this post was just my thoughts being poured out.. If you take anything personal or think am talking about you, well, think about it and DO SOMETHING!!! 

My 2nd post from the iPod touch!!

I struggle 2

What started off as a single post, is now stretching to 2.. I Struggle -1

I struggle 

to say No
to say " Go to hell, i aint gonna do it"
to say "Thats not fair, stop doing/saying..."
to say "This is my room, please leave"
to say "I might like my things in certain places, but your damned if you mock me for it"
to say "Get a life and get out of mine"
to do certain things [even though they might do me good]
to watch people wreck things/books/jewellery/curio items/etc that i cherish
to "not care"
to show 'fake" interest in gossip/politics/dramakings & queens
to be something i am not!!

I am happy being me...
So let me be!! 

Thursday, May 19, 2011

I struggle- 1

 ... to accept compliments with a smile and Thank you
.... to express how i feel with people
...  to put words to my feelings/thoughts
...  to control my temper [at times]
...  to forget
...  to handle pain/hurt
...  to express grief
.... to deal with idle yakking/gossip
.... to get involved in Family/office politics
.... to fake my feelings pretend 

Sunday, May 15, 2011


Over the last few days, I am on my laptop working and every few minutes i open blogger to do a post and within few mins, all I accomplish is to close the page! Brain drain I guess or just a phase.. I hope!

Today, I got home after walk, and been sitting on the porch listening to music on my iPod touch when suddenly the urge to blog popped up and here I am doing a post from my iPod touch :-)

The last few weeks have been quite draining, notthe physical kind due to chenai summer. If anything, I've barely noticed the heat... We've all been so emotionally drained out and wondering how to move on...

In my life, atleast in the 3decades so far, I've lost quite a few family members- gramps, great gramma, uncles and aunts.. But this aunt's loss seems to be the one that has taken a toll on me.. Realized the more you love someone the more the pain, but we've been all talking about her, quirky habits she had, the way she was particular about things and so on...

The amount of fun me And my cousin have had with her. She used to sit on the bed with us, cover us with a blanket and feel around from the top and guess who's nose, hands, legs and on purpose would guess wrong.. We would be squealing everytime she got I wrong!! What fun... As time went, she became a sort of peace keeper of the family.. Someone who everyone confided in, felt comfortable talking to... Anyone fell Ill, she would be here at grandparents place keeping em company or in the hospital..

I could go on n on.. I guess when a person has been an integral part of your life, from birth, you miss em!!!And am sure she is looking down and smiling , hoping we stop making so many crazy mistakes and get on with life... Which is the plan... ;-)

Phew, enough ranting for now.. Time to kick start the Monday!!! Am looking forward to the day, just as i look forward to every monday!!

Rock it people!! :-)

Thursday, May 12, 2011

The Ant Fable.. or maybe not...

This was an email forward that had me amused and thinking.. So, decided to share it on my blog...

   The Ant Fable.. or maybe not...

Every day, a small ant arrives at work very early and starts work immediately. She produces a lot and she was happy. The chief, a lion, was surprised to see that the ant was working without supervision. He thought if the ant can produce so much without supervision, wouldn’t she produce even more if she had a supervisor!

So he recruited a cockroach who had extensive experience as supervisor and who was famous for writing excellent reports. The cockroach’s first decision after taking charge was to set up a clock in the attendance system. He also needed a secretary to help him write and type his reports and he recruited a spider, who managed the archives and monitored all the phone calls.

The lion was delighted with the cockroach’s reports and asked him to produce graphs to describe production rates and to analyse trends, so that he could use them for presentations at Board meetings. So the cockroach had to buy a new computer and a laser printer and recruited a fly to manage the IT department.

The ant, who had once been so productive and relaxed, hated this new plethora of paperwork and meetings which used up most of the time. The lion came to the conclusion that it was high time to nominate a person in charge of the department where the ant worked. The position was given to the cicada, whose first decision was to buy a carpet and an ergonomic chair for his office.

The new person in charge, the cicada, also needed a computer and a personal assistant, who he brought from his previous department, to help him prepare a Work and Budget Control Strategic Optimisation Plan.

The department where the ant worked is now a sad place, where nobody laughs anymore and everybody has become upset. It was at that time that the cicada convinced the boss, the lion, of the absolute necessity to start a climatic study of the environment. Having reviewed the charges for running the ant’s department, the lion found out that the production was much less than before.

So he recruited the owl, a prestigious and renowned consultant to carry out an audit and suggest solutions. The owl spent three months in the department and came up with an enormous report, in several volumes, that concluded: ‘The department is overstaffed.’

Guess, who the lion fires first? The ant, of course, because she showed lack of motivation and had a negative attitude.

Note: The characters in this fable are fictitious and any resemblance to real people or facts within the Corporate World is purely coincidental……